Today, October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.
Not a single day goes by that I’m not extremely grateful for our vibrant, beautiful, full of personality, kiddos. And not a single day has gone by since that September day in 2012 when I began to miscarry our first pregnancy that I haven’t wondered what might have been. Most days it’s just a whisper, a little tug in my chest or stomach, and other days it’s a flood of unexpected emotion and tears. I often wonder what that lost child would have been like and I imagine the ways their little personality would shine through. I have wondered how our lives would be different if I hadn’t miscarried before our twins were born and it’s really unimaginable. I’m so very thankful that we have this life and I’m positive that this is the way it’s suppose to be.
Since my miscarriage we’ve had several friends and family members struggle with pregnancy loss. Though I can’t ever seem to find comforting words, or even words of encouragement for those experiencing infertility and pregnancy complications, I feel deeply for these women and their partners. Today is a day for remembering and I will light a candle at 7:00 in honor of all those babies who left too soon.
This is so sweet. I hope everyone who experienced such a loss reads this and is comforted. I will forward it to a few people. xoxo